IT IS NOT SELFISH TO BE SELF-COMPASSIONATE
By Nate Terrell, LCSW
When I tell people I have written a book on achieving self-compassion, they often ask, "Isn't it selfish to be self-compassionate?"
I always respond that there is nothing selfish about being our own best friend, knowing we are inherently worthy, choosing happiness or enjoying the present moment, which are the cornerstones of self-compassion.
In contrast to self-compassion which is simply about treating ourselves well, selfishness is about being self-centered and meeting our needs at the expense of others. Selfish people put themselves first and are driven by self-preservation rather than fairness.
Consequently, they feel a sense of entitlement which leads them to promote their interests even this causes others to suffer. In fact, most of the problems in this world are caused by the destructive behavior of selfish people who lack the empathy they need to be caring and sensitive human beings.
Self-compassion is vastly different from selfishness because it fills us with happiness and peace of mind that we can pass on to others.
Highly self-compassionate people live their lives with fulfillment rather than scarcity and therefore have no need to be self-centered or selfish in their quest to get their needs met. They know that they do not need to choose between being compassionate to themselves or others. They can do both at the same time and enjoy the rewards that both have to offer.
For much of my life, I also believed that it was selfish to focus on meeting my own needs and that the main purpose of life was to help others.
Not surprisingly, I became a social worker which has brought great meaning into my life and enabled me to be a guide to others as they overcome the challenges they face. I routinely put my needs aside as I ministered to others which often led me to feel depleted or even burned out.
My conviction that I was responsible for the happiness of others was challenged by my son, Darqui, who my wife and I adopted when he was nine.
As a result of the trauma he experienced before he joined our family, Darqui often sank into dark and angry moods where he seemed beyond our reach. When this occurred, I would hover around him, trying desperately to help him overcome his inner demons and find the happiness he deserved.
During a particularly difficult time in our relationship four years ago, he informed me that he hated me trying to make him happy, that he had the right to feel however he wanted and that there was nothing I could do about it. He also told me in no uncertain terms that I needed to leave him alone and worry about my own life.
Although hurt by this rebuff, I began to realize that it was grandiose for me to believe that I could make Darqui - or anyone else for that matter - happy.
I gave Darqui the space he demanded and reinvested the energy that I had using trying to rescue him from himself to better meet my own needs. I spent more time in the woods by myself, began meditating on a regular basis and most importantly, listened to my own inner voice that knew what was best for me at any given moment.
After not speaking to me for a couple of months, Darqui finally wandered into my home office one day and began to talk. I asked him how I had done leaving him alone and he congratulated me on my efforts. Although I am devoted to doing everything within my domain to help Darqui,
I have never again taken on the responsibility for his happiness which has helped our relationship immeasurably. Although we are very close, he never fails to remind me when I need to back off and let him be.
I have continued to take better care of myself and treat myself with the same self-compassion I have always tried to extend to others.
Rather than make me more selfish, I have more positive energy to serve others and help them become their best selves. As a result, I feel even better about myself which has created a cycle of increasing abundance in my life that I treasure.
I hope you are also able to recognize that there is nothing selfish about taking great care of yourself.
Rather than take my word for it, prove it to yourself by experimenting with the strategies I discuss in the book that Darqui inspired me to write entitled, Achieving Self-Compassion: Giving Yourself the Gifts of Happiness and Inner Peace. I have no doubt that you will become more rather than less caring and giving to others as a result!
Nate Terrell invites you to view his website, www.achievingselfcompassion.com where you can sign up for his newsletter and/or self-compassion coaching. He also encourages you to visit his Facebook page, achieving self-compassion, where you can discuss your experiences with self-compassion. He looks forward to hearing from you!
